Leaving You

She gave up. She gave up on trying, she gave up on believing. She tried to defy the time to no avail because of you. Little that you know she almost sacrifice herself, her life just to defy the odds. The odds that is actually a bitter reality that she had to face but you portrayed it in such way that she saw that as an opportunity not to be missed. You gave her false hope, you diverted her from her original destination, path, whatever you called it. Did she deserved that? She just need a simple answer to clarify. That is it. A simple “no” from you and she’ll move on. She’s not stupid enough to stay after the clarification and you knew that too well. You just need someone to adore you, someone that likes you more than you like them. You promised her empty promises. You promised her things that you don’t have intention on fulfilling it. You don’t care whether she’s hurt or not, you just want a self-satisfaction. She trusted you just like how she believes that everything is made for reasons. She tried her best to impress you so that you’ll look at her as a real person. She knew her place too well but she wanted to defy the odds so badly that she tried and tried and tried until she was at the peak of her limitation. She thought that some things are meant to be infinity but she was wrong and she learnt it in the hard way. Everything has a limit. Humans are limited to years, foods are limited to their expiry dates and so on. She knew something was amiss but she was afraid if she was wrong. Thus, she endured her insecurities, her disappointment, her annoyance, and everything to herself. She thought she was strong enough until one day she was pinned at her own limitations. She was scared to make decisions, she was scared to move on, she was scared to leave you behind but she knew that is for the best. She had finally realized that you don’t need her. You just want to have a short-term fun where she wanted a long-term ally, comrade, someone that she can shares everything. In the end, she left. She left because her mind told her to do so although her heart rebelled viciously. She realized that if she stays, she’ll not be happy and finally she’ll lost herself. She knows at the end of the day, the only precious thing that is left is herself and if she sacrifices herself now, she’ll regret it for the rest of her life.

JINN