Towards South 3

Day 3 since the last we talked. The only escapism I have right now is to stress out myself. In that very harsh way, I'll forget you. How complex this life works. one point we thought everything's going to be simple but in the other point everything is just too much. The feeling of longing has faded living only some small scars which can be cured over the time. Sometimes I wonder what am I to you whether I'm just another passer by in your life or am I the change to your life? Honestly the second one might be too mainstream. I need to accept that from now on I have to move on, continue this life without the presence of you just like how I begin my life. Nobody stays long in my life except for my lovely parents who loves me unconditionally. Yes, we fight often. We argues but that usually won't last long. At the moment, everything is just too numb and too much for me. I felt nothing except for emptiness and dizziness. Honestly I don't know how we get to this point that we just simply ignore each other. Maybe we are just too busy with ourselves that we forget the counterpart. Just maybe you know. I wish you would start the conversation. I'm tired of being the starter. Why does it always me? Is it because you think that I could absorb everything like a sponge and retains its normal shape? Then, if you ever think that way I guess you are wrong. Note that I'm a human too. I cried. I feel moody. I feel lonely. Despite those dark side, I have my own bright side too. I smiled. I laughed. I'm cheerful. The me that you met for the previous weeks was the bright side of me. You are just lucky. Way too lucky.

JINN