Detonation

somehow you did a break in an unwritten virtual tension walls between us. Thanks though. I mean I wish to know more about you or what has happened to you but I know there's a boundary line between us that each one of just don't wish to cross it. I respect your decision, your rights as always. Just to let you know, I have never ignore you. I just felt unwanted and being ignored. When there is insecurity on the line, I choose the safe way that is to say nothing. Let the time do their jobs. I just go with the flow. where ever the tides bring me, I'll go there. I wish to flow away against the tide but I realized I just don't have guts to do so. For now, I'm just too weak to do it but I know sooner or later I'll be among the people who flow away against the tide. For me the life that I have now is already good enough for me. I mean what else should I ask? Despite of having some internal problems most probably from myself, I am served with good foods. Life might not be okay sometimes but remember we are just lucky or I'm just lucky. I hold this one phrase "eat well, live well" so whenever you feel at lose you go find food. well to be honest it might not be a good escapism because you intend to obese yourself but sometimes all you need is something to indulge, something nice that you can have it, maybe ice cream. I don't consume alcohol or wine or anything that has the same meaning with them so food is my target. But sometimes when we are just too sad or depressed that just won't work. That time, turn to someone that you really believe and burst out. If you don't have that 'someone' then 'something' would be okay. Just like me, I felt better writing this. Let go everything you have in your mind and at the same time being unknown. I guess my confession part has reached to an end, I shall continue later but this drama part ends here.


JINN