New Chapter

I have just realized that I haven't post anything on this blog for quite sometime. Not that I don't want to blog or anything but I have to think twice and thrice for the effects that come after I post anything on the internet. We don't really live in a free world though. I don't know if there are real people who are reading my blog but.. I'm still gonna blog because I feel like to. So today, I'm gonna post something a bit different from my previous posts. I don't how different it will be but I just simply feel like it will be different. I like the word "different" and "weird"because it just simply describe what kind of person I am. So... without further do, let's proceed to our very first post of the year \^o^/

NEW CHAPTER

I have opened a new chapter in my life which is university life. I left the school life with pretty much open heart. Back then, I was eager to end that chapter. School wasn't suck at all for me but I just simply couldn't wait for it to end. I was influenced by certain unverified sources that said university life is much much better than what school life could offer. Funny. And it turned out not really well. I began my new chapter around 6 weeks ago. On that sunny day, after I had attended a dreadful scholarship interview, I received a call from another scholarship provider. They told me that I got their scholarship and I had to verified the offer on the spot. I accepted the offer in a heartbeat and started my university life two days later. Everything was so sudden that I had this feeling I didn't have a good ending for my previous chapter of life. Unlike anyone who likes a long, unlimited holiday, I prefer an organised timetable everyday. It gives me reason why I pursue my life everyday. A week holiday is OK. A two week holiday is superb. A three week of holiday is a bless. A six months of holiday is disaster. So yeah, what I can conclude here is less is more.

I didn't really had a good opening chapter of a new chapter. I was a second intake student and I was the only one from my school who received the scholarship. Everything was new to me when I entered here. I struggled to make new friends and the ability to adapt with this new environment. That was the saddest part as a loner like me. I did try to make a conversation with them, but to be honest everything was just too awkward. I enrolled here during 4th day of orientation week. They had been divided into their consecutive orientation group. I didn't how the groups are divided into so I tried to apply to other students that I'm interested to join their group. And the responds were quite cliche but straightforward. "I don't know if you could join this group" and "we have enough people in our group" and "You should ask the seniors". That particular moment, I literally felt like an alien from the other side of the world. Then, I asked one of the seniors what orientation group I should be in and she told me I could join which ever groups I wanted. Cut the story short, I eventually got a group to join in. I wasn't having a great time at all during orientation at all unlike other students. My group members were "nice" enough that I felt as if I was being ignored. I didn't really mind though because at least I had a group to join in or otherwise I'll be really in a lonely planet. The orientation week ended with scrumptious dinner which was my most favourite part of the week.

My real new chapter began when I started my very first class as a university student. I had a hectic weekdays every week with everyday homework which need to be submitted before 8.15am on the next day. To be honest, I wasn't expecting those would be coming. Like what my mom always said to me I always had an unreal expectation of things, I did. Serve me right. In here, I have to learn a new language which is Japanese. I had always love new languages as I find them a beautiful thing but.. there's always a but isn't it? Japanese language is fun to learn but I struggled to remember the grammars, the pattern of the sentence, the always changing particles and so on. It was okay so far despite the struggles that I have to face every single day. Struggles make you stronger and sturdy isn't it? I miss my parents, my old acquaintances, my school, my breakfast partner, my diverse classmates, my room, my previous life and my lil brother. I don't say this very often because what is past is gone forever. Time can't be rewind so do age. I'm aging as the second ticks although i'm only 17 turning 18. I could feel the aging is REAL.

To those who struggle to cope with new life like me, don't worry love, you are not alone. Just don't give up and face life an open heart. Life is not a smooth ride and will never be. You will face the ups and downs of life often. Every challenge that comes to you is bearable until you said otherwise. Best of luck everyone! Ganbarimashou!