To NTK

I don't know how to start this blog honestly. I have been wanting to write ever since last week but I couldn't find the right sentence to begin with. I still want to write tho. Come to think of it, i guess I'm the kind of person who's easy to read as I usually express my feelings openly(maybe). Well, not really actually.

The reason I'm writing this blog is because I have something that I have always wanted to say but I couldn't bring myself to. I'm that girl who fights her inner demons while trying to compose herself properly in front of people. I give my hearts away easily and for that my heart has been broken countlessly.

I have been wanting to say these things to this one particular person but I couldn't bring myself to. I probably don't know this person well and I have no right whatsoever to judge this one particular person but I have few words that I dread to say to this person.

**If you ever read this although you probably would never read this, screw you.

{Dear NTK,
Does it feels good to ignore someone's message? Does it feels great to reply one's message after a week, a month or even a year? Okay fine, a week is still considered acceptable for me considering that your "busyness" is at a point where you can't even type "i'm busy. Reply later" sentence. Well, if you are really that busy then can you have that courtesy to actually inform me so that I wouldn't really have to wait for your replies and I don't have to make unnecessary hypothesis to comfort myself. Well, let me tell you this if you are just too ignorant, too naive to understand this basic conscience. Waiting for a reply sucks when you know that the person had read your message! I'm tired of explaining to myself about you(NTK).
1)NTK is busy
2)NTK is too busy
3)Someone probably had deleted the message
4)NTK will reply soon with an apology and an explanation.
And the list goes on.
Well let's be honest here. I like you.
I like you up until now and I don't have clear reason as to why I like you. Probably because you are different than the rest of your shy clans? Probably because you have been so open about yourself when we first met? Probably because you speak the language that I so badly want to master? I DON'T KNOW. If you want to reject me, please do so. はっきり言ってください！Yeah, my heart gonna break but it'll heal eventually rather than you leave me without saying anything and keeping me uncertain. You know that I have feelings for you and if that actually making you feel uncomfortable, then let's stop being even as a friend. 友達としても、やめよう。
友達になってくれてありがとう！
迷惑をかけて、申し訳ありません🙏🏻
友達としてやめる前に、私のメッセージを返事してください。
それで、「友達としても、やめよう」はっきり言ってください。
Let's have a clean and clear end.}

温凛