This year I'm turning 20 and honestly i'm anxious just by thinking of the number itself(haha). I used to think that the road to 20 is such a long road that I sort of take a lot of things for granted while I was a teenager. BTW, I am still a teenager tho, at least for now. I wouldn't say that I regretted of what I did because if I didn't do what I did in the past, I wouldn't be here now but it's just.. I don't know. Reflecting and taking some lessons from the past, maybe?
Living without a purpose is like sailing in the sea without a destination. What's the point of sailing if there is no place to go? The same goes as what's the point of living if there is no purpose, something to look forward to. Everyone has something that they like to do, or something/someone that they like to cherish, or something that they want to achieve. Anything that makes you look forward is a purpose. Life purpose isn't necessarily to be big because at the end, it's up to the individuals on how they like to interpret the meaning of life and purpose itself.
If you ask me honestly why do I live, I would say simply because I'm afraid of dying. I'm scared of venturing the unknown, I'm scared of not being able to meet people that I used to meet and finally I'm scared of being all alone. I believe that death is not the end of life but it's a beginning of something, something that I myself am not too sure. They all could say life after death is like this, life after death is like that, but honestly you won't know the truth until you experience it yourself. I didn't say that I didn't believe with what my religion told me about life after death, okay. In fact, the reason why I'm scared of dying is due to religious reason as well.
Oh well, this entry isn't supposed to be about dying and depressing stuff but yeah, I accidentally wrote it, so yeah...
Actually, by writing this post I started to think about what I really want, what I'm actually looking forward to in this life. I guess the only way to set my life straight is by writing because by writing I started to think seriously about a lot of things, especially about life and also other things as well.
Like I said earlier, I'm turning 20 this year and I think I really have to set my life straight coz i'm turning 20 which means i'm getting older and I'm slowly turning into that typically bored adult which I don't want.
So here's the list of my life goal/purpose/objective, what ever you call it.
1. Travelling
I have always like travel because I get to see something new and learn something from it. Culture and history has always been a thing for me although I'm taking engineering currently. Engineering is something that I need and Culture and history is something that I have interest in. I like the feeling of exploring new things, new spot, which you can only feel by travelling.
2. Teaching
I realized that I love teaching back when I was in secondary school. Sometimes I study to teach others. I like the respond that people make after they understand one thing like [ohh..got it.] or [I finally understand!] or [it turned out to be easy actually.] and so on. If I had a chance, I am interested to join teaching profession one day. Probably not at normal school tho. I have something else in my mind actually but it's still a teaching profession.
3. Learning new languages
I love communicating in different languages with different people. I believe that if you speak the language, you'll eventually be able to speak with the person's heart as well. As the saying goes
which I couldn't agree more. If it's possible, I would like to master 5 languages in this life. So far I could write, speak and read in 3 languages so.. 2 languages more to go!
4. Happy and contented life
Well, this is a bit cliche but it could be a life purpose too right? Happiness isn't always about making yourself happy but sometimes happiness is about making people around you happy. There are people in this world who seek happiness in someone else because to them, other people's happiness are as much important or more important than their own happiness.
5. Starting a family
I love kids and I always have deep interest in parenting. That is probably why I love to watch SuperNanny on Youtube(haha). I tried the teaching technique that was recommended on SuperNanny to kids but it didn't work honestly but that's fine. I guess the main key isn't always the teaching technique but it is more to communication skill with kids. I love kids but too many kids probably a no no.
6. Writing
I realized that I love writing last year. I didn't realize my passion for writing until I have to write an application form, and in that application form has a column regarding hobbies and interest. I thought about it for quite sometime because honestly that time I literally don't know what I like to do and what I'm actually interested to. Someone told me, hobbies are something that you enjoy to do during free time and interest is something that you like and makes you feel excited when doing it. I realized that I have been writing since primary school. I love writing diaries because for me it's a form of stress reliever and I love writing short stories too. I'm not sure whether I have the talent for writing or not but one thing for sure is I love writing!
So that's the list. There are more actually but I guess those are the most important parts I guess. Oh and the list number has nothing to do with priority. I just write things that come into my mind first.
To sum up, I live to travel, to teach, to write, to learn and to have a family.
To people who think they probably don't have a life purpose, don't worry! If you have something that you want to eat for dinner today, it is still considered as a life purpose! As long as you have the feeling of wanting something or wanting to do something, it's still considered as life purpose.
Have a nice day everyone!
JINN
Have a nice day everyone!
JINN
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