Time as a healer(2 weeks)

Time as a healer(2 weeks)

Moon and I didn’t actually break up. We just went separate ways and everything is over. One day, Moon simply stop replying to my messages and I eventually stop waiting. At first, it was hard. The feeling of betrayal and curiosity overwhelmed me and for that I had spent almost everyday thinking about Moon. Some people said if we like someone for more than 4 months, it’s no longer a form of crush but a love. The feeling of curiosity and betrayal only lasted for two weeks and now I feel numb. I don’t how to feel or react anymore. I still check on the app to make sure there’s no unread messages although deep down I was hoping for Moon to actually reply or say hi or something. 

Moon and I met about 3 months ago and if the theory is right I probably didn’t like Moon that much. Time surely heals every broken pieces within you or even if it doesn’t heal, it surely knows how to make you oblivious of your actual feeling. About two weeks ago, almost everything that I do, I’ll be reminded of Moon. Two weeks later? Not so anymore except for today. It was raining cat and dog and somewhat it reminded me of those rainy days that I had spent with Moon. Those days when we crossed the rain together, those days when we shared the umbrella together and the time when I told Moon I like the rain and the feeling it makes me feel.

After two weeks of not in contact with Moon, I learnt a few things. I learnt how much Moon actually meant in my life, I learnt that no matter how much you like someone, if they don’t feel the same way, the relationship will never work, and I learnt that time surely can do miracles. Maybe I didn’t like Moon as much as I thought but Moon surely one of the good moments that had ever happened in my life. I probably was hallucinating when Moon did some nice gestures to me when the fact that Moon is just being nice with no harm intended. 

Whatever the reason that Moon has to explain the situation(if Moon ever replies to my message again), I probably will just accept and like Moon again. For the time being, it is probably best for Moon to not contacting me anymore because if Moon does, I probably will return to two weeks ago me. The two weeks ago me was an unstable creature with feelings that change instantly every second ticks and mind that was full with everything about Moon. 

“I wish to say this to Moon, I wish to show this to Moon, I want Moon to feel this way, I want Moon to listen to this song, etc.” 

-Two weeks ago me- 

Almost everything that I do, I’ll always keep Moon in my mind. Isn’t if funny that you put so much effort for people that you like, you think about them constantly, you try to understand them although you know that you just couldn’t but in the end, they just simply have no clue of what’s actually going on and everything that you do is the same with everything that you not do. It’s like you put so much effort to decorate shadows but they are never actually there and every of your effort become flying dusts when shadows are gone. 

Time surely heals be it a week, a month or a year. You just have to convince yourself that everything will be okay and be patience about it. You’re going to feel miserable, at one point you might wanted to shout at top of your lung or you might wanted to pull off all of your hairs desperately because you feel like you just can’t tolerate dramas that you yourself don’t even asked for but one fine day, everything will be in place. One day, those unwanted feelings will become numb and from numb it’ll disappear like bubbles that are being washed by strong waves. You are going to be okay. Trust yourself.

JINN