It has been 24 hours since the last time I heard from you. Do you purposely ignore me or are you really busy? I know I have no rights whatsoever to demand anything from you because we are just "friend" as I would call it. Honestly Moon, I've never actually thought you as my friend. You've always been someone special to me and deep inside me, I've always knew it. I made it clear to you that you're just my "friend" when the fact that, I did that simply because I don't want to lose you even as an acquaintance. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable around me if you find out what's actually circling inside my head. Did you know I talk about you everyday and I remember vividly those moments that we spent together even though it was just a while? I miss you so much and this suppressed feeling is killing me and making me sick in certain unexplained ways that I myself finding it hard to explain. I don't know if this feeling is genuine and I don't know for how much longer I'll be feeling this but one thing that is for sure is as of now, I dread to hear from you.
You have life outside this internet space and I know it. Alas, I still wish you won't ignore me this way. You have no obligation to reply my messages and it isn't your fault for me turn this way. It was me from the beginning. It is my fault to begin with. I fall first. I cling on first. I become comfortable, too comfortable first. I'm sorry if those messages disturb you and forgive me for intruding your private space. I have so many things that I want to tell you but I keep most of the things to myself. I don't want to portray myself as someone who needs attention continuously although I probably am. Remember when I asked you if I message you too much and you said I wasn't? I had the feeling that you were simply being nice to me by saying I weren't when you feel burden about it. I hope you would be honest to me as much as I try to be as honest as possible to you. I guess both of us have secrets that we wish to conceal as hard as possible not letting others to know about those. I tried my best to keep my action and my gesture as sane as possible when in truth, I'm turning insane seeing those messages that are left unread.
Deep inside me, I knew for some reason that you already read those messages. I have been doing the same too, you know. I read the messages beforehand and trying not to be seen like a desperate lady, I waited for quite sometime before actually reply to your messages.
Reply my message, please.
JINN
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