My dear Moon

Love isn't all about sweet things and happy moments. Sometimes its better to let the person that you love go rather than keeping them around knowing that they'll go sooner or later. Honestly, it's freaking hard and I wouldn't lie it hurts me internally more than anything. I want to let the person go as much as I wanted the person to stay around. Let's just give "the person" nickname coz along the way, I know I'll find it hard to keep on referring that particular person as "the person" without using he/she. So let's call that person as Moon.

I started to know Moon first because before we met, I came across short video of Moon somewhere on the internet. Few weeks after I watched the short video, Moon came into my life unexpectedly and I saw Moon for the first time in real life while I was having my breakfast. That unforgettable instant moment, sigh. But it wasn't love at first sight. I don't have much trust in love at first sight because compared to looks, attitudes are far way more important. I thought Moon as a friend or a person that I enjoy to be around with. I influenced Moon to wear bracelet and anklet and Moon did. I don't know whether Moon wear those accessories because of me or simply because Moon find it amusing after I introduced those accessories but Moon wears it. I'm not sure if Moon still wears bracelet but while Moon was still around me, Moon wore it.

I'm not sure if the feeling is reciprocal but Moon treated me very well. Moon was very kind to everyone actually but I don't know,  somewhere deep down I knew Moon treated me somewhat special(maybe that was just my fantasy but... ) than the rest. I probably was hallucinating but Moon literally treated me well. Moon gave me A LOT of chocolates, treated me lunch although I declined, waited for me while I was choosing new bracelet to buy and simply play along with me when I asked Moon to try food or beauty product. Moon was a good company to be around with. Moon is the guy and Moon is also the girl that I wanted to keep for quite some time as of now.

But then, love isn't about keeping the person to yourself alone. Love is about growing together, supporting each other through thick and thin and appreciating each others present. The funniest thing about Moon and I is we probably supporting and appreciating each other but there is no way of growing together. As the time ticks, Moon and I are actually growing apart. Moon and I walks in parallel line and as we all are aware of this fact, parallel line doesn't intercept. I don't know for how long I could keep up with this parallel line relationship that continues to enlarge the gap in between but I'm getting anxious and maybe a bit scared as the second ticks.

I'm anxious that one day Moon will just simply ignore me and I'm scared if one day Moon simply disappear from my life. Honestly, I still keep Moon around me although currently the only thing that we share the same view is the moon. I asked Moon to look at the moon once because during that time I think the moon appeared at its best and Moon looked at it. Moon sent me picture of the moon though and I sent back the picture of the moon that I took. That moment I would say was... romantic.Hahahahaha. Well, I did to certain people actually, not only to Moon.

Should I keep Moon around while our position still in parallel line that never intercepts or should I just confront Moon and ends everything all at once?

Nah, the answer is too obvious. I think I'll stick to the first choice and continues to hurt myself until there's no space left within me to hurt anymore. By that time, I'll let Moon go indefinitely.

人工の幸せでもいい（even if it's artificial happiness, it's still okay)

-Moon, Dec 2018-

JINN

P/s I called the person Moon because that particular person likes night and hates sun.